“You’re rich in love, and You’re slow
to anger, Your name is great, and Your heart is kind; for all Your goodness, I
will keep on singing; 10,000 reasons for my heart to find.”
MATT Redman’s song is an anthem for
so many. God ushered something into my ungrateful spirit recently — ‘do 10,000
reasons!’
I knew immediately what He meant,
and I did not like it.
What, I am being tasked with 10,000 actual reasons for my
heart to find; why I love you; why I’m grateful?
I’ve done 100 Reasons to be Happy twice. It really only took about ninety minutes each
time to count those blessings. But is God asking me to do that over one hundred
consecutive days?
Is it a punishment? No. It’s about
Him giving me an assignment as I reinstall a gratitude habit.
The truth is the busyness of life
is wearing me down. It’s only three weeks into a new year and I’m wearing out
already being there for everyone else but myself — it’s not the full truth but
that’s what it feels like. I feel like I’ve been under sustained spiritual
attack for over a month. My life is far busier than I wish it were, and a big
part of that is the season we’re in, and it’s not bad. I’m not achieving my
personal health and exercise goals because I’m dining out on comfort in an
uncomfortable season. Feeling devoid of hope has become normal. My light shines
dimly. But none of this is anyone else’s fault but my own. Two things make life
easier when it’s hard: 1. work hard and 2. take responsibility.
I’m taking God up on His challenge,
even though I resent it at present, and feel it will only load me up even more.
But I do have faith He will show me something over the next one hundred days as
I wrestle with my frustration and exhaustion and gradually replace them with perspective
and thankfulness through the simple practice of gratitude.
So, 10,000 reasons for my heart to
find… why? Because I’m not living a Christlike life at the moment.
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